Wow - it's been almost a year since I've written anything in here. I have mixed feelings about it. I'm really tired of what I perceive to be everyone's incessant and narcissistic attempts to draw attention to themselves. Some of my favorite things to read are blogs, but let's face it - not everyone has the talent to write and I really don't want a blow by blow account of how you woke up, drove the kids to school, did laundry and then spent too much time on Facebook before you picked the kids up from school and made dinner, a carb laden mac and cheese with an over cooked side of wilty veggies that you posted a picture of. Also, shit happens to all of us - and the occasional blog about bad things happening and how they empowered you to change is awesome, but an unending chain of blog entries about how THIS time everything is going to be different and you really will GETTHEHOUSECLEANLOSEWEIGHTFINISHYOURKNITTINGPROJECTSDECLUTTERTHEGARAGEANDGOVEGAN - I think I'm afraid of falling in to the latter category. I have started so many projects/diets/goals/crusades that all seem to peter out in an ever shortening amount of time. I'm afraid to share what I think and feel anymore - because frankly, I think everyone will find it boring and repetitive. Hell, I find it boring. I've started at least 15 diets in the last few years, with the result that I am exactly 15 lbs fatter than the last time I swore I WILL NEVER GET THIS FAT AGAIN. My house is a disaster area. I can't remember the last time I changed the oil in my car. My back deck looks like this -
(Yes. that would be a deck chair and my firepit that I didn't cover or remove before Winter hit.)
I'm pretty sure this is what depression looks like. On the bright side, I'm up to date on all the Game of Thrones books and the Sookie Stackhouse novels. And I can Netflix like a motherfucker. *sigh*
My Birthday is coming up next week and I've decided that I want to do something I've always dreamed of for my Birthday this year. Something that will give me a sense of accomplishment and maybe open up the door to my dream future. I want to sign up for a Creative Writing class and attempt to finish my first book for publication by my Birthday next year. I'm putting it out there in writing hoping that the Universe will help me along in reaching my goal. Also, I want to start updating my blog more often. I promise to try and not be tedious.
